You'll Miss Me When I'm Gone by Rachel Lynn Solomon
An e-galley was provided by the publisher via NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.
Summary: Eighteen-year-old twins Adina and Tovah have little in common besides their ambitious nature. Viola prodigy Adina yearns to become a soloist—and to convince her music teacher he wants her the way she wants him. Overachiever Tovah awaits her acceptance to Johns Hopkins, the first step on her path toward med school and a career as a surgeon.
But one thing could wreck their carefully planned futures: a genetic test for Huntington’s, a rare degenerative disease that slowly steals control of the body and mind. It’s turned their Israeli mother into a near stranger and fractured the sisters’ own bond in ways they’ll never admit. While Tovah finds comfort in their Jewish religion, Adina rebels against its rules.
When the results come in, one twin tests negative for Huntington’s. The other tests positive.
These opposite outcomes push them farther apart as they wrestle with guilt, betrayal, and the unexpected thrill of first love. How can they repair their relationship, and is it even worth saving?
The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly: I wanted to love You'll Miss Me When I'm Gone. Unfortunately, it falls into that place of "I sort of liked it."
Tovah's journey and connection with her Jewish faith were my two favorite parts. I appreciated how she didn't get everything she wanted but still ended up in a good place. I loved how much Judaism meant to her. Tovah is one of the most religious characters I've seen in YA, and nothing about her felt inauthentic or forced.
Adina, however, tended to get on my nerves. I expected her to act out, but the ways she acted out made me uncomfortable. I'm trying not to spoil too much, but basically her romance felt so squicky to me.
I liked the journey with the girls' mother, and I loved hearing about her past.
There's a fair amount of foul language, much more than I expected. There was also far more sexual content than I prefer in my YA fiction. And as a sort of trigger warning, there is self-harm and suicide ideation.
The Verdict: Definitely a quiet story. Good, thought-provoking, but not great.
Will I be adding this book to my library: In all honesty, no.