June 3, 2016

More of My Poetry

All right, this is the last of these posts, I promise. I just wanted to share a couple more poems I wrote for my class this spring. All of these went into my final portfolio, so I think they were some of my best from the second half of the semester.

Sakura (an ekphrastic poem)

Bricks through windows
My brother
Followed home
Black eyes
And split lips
Many others
Bear the same marks
Cherry blossoms
Dormant until spring
A bomb
No, many bombs
My parents
Were shocked
Tears
Whispered phone calls
Neutrality no more
Distrust
War
We stand
By our new nation
Yet
Displacement
Barbed wire
Not home
Snaking branches of trees
No cherry blossoms
Despite the summer sun
Sandy, gritty dirt everywhere
Far from friends
No true crimes committed
To put us here
I miss
The cherry blossoms
War
Two bombs
Damaged children
Orphaned children
Dead children
Cherry blossoms
Will bloom
Someday
Not today

The World Wouldn't Spin Right (a line poem, first written between the lines of an e.e. cummings's poem, then revised and made more my own)

“If earth was heaven…” ~e.e. cummings

If freckles were lovely, I’d be Helen of Troy.
If a lie were the truth, I’d spin webs,
and I would never be melancholy.
But the world wouldn’t spin right,
and I wouldn’t be me.

My head would be full
of algorithms and workouts.
I’d walk to school every day,
spend my afternoons on the soccer field.
Popularity would be second nature.
Children’s cries would curl my lip,
and the sound of a Broadway soundtrack
wouldn’t catch my attention.
But I would never be happy,
for I wouldn’t truly be me.

If fear were courage, I’d run the other way.
If tears were smiles, I’d laugh them away.
In this other world, would I be
the only one to notice how wrong things were?
But, then again,
I wouldn’t be me.
I would stroll through life,
think everything normal.
It wouldn’t really be a different world,
to those who lived in it.
In such a place,
I’d be as oblivious

as everyone else.

The Dream (a fairytale poem)

Ever since I was a little girl,
I have rarely dreamed, at night or during the day.
Yet there has been a recurring dream
of an enchantress, a prince, a rose.

I told my mother about the dream;
the secret accompanied her to the grave.
I never spoke of the enchantress or prince again.
I was already the town’s eccentric,

their crazy Rose for all these years.
Now my family is destitute;
Papa drinks to quell his demons,
and I must be his brave Rose.

My sisters wanted soft silks and velvets,
when he journeyed to see his ships.
He asked what I wanted—
his safety was my true desire
but I asked for a rose.

Now our troubles are worse than ever.
I do not truly blame Papa,
but my sisters do. He only wanted
to bring me what I requested, a single rose.

That is why I have to go,
to the castle, as the prisoner of the beast.
He is a mystery to everyone in the village;
we know only that he loves roses.

I have to hide my suffocating fear.
Papa cannot return to the castle,
and my sisters are selfish.
I have to be my father’s brave Rose.

I journey to the castle, iron and foreboding.
For some time, I see only the enchanted servants.
They allow me to explore, but they warn
of the West Wing and forbid me to ever pluck a rose.

But the West Wing is alluring.
Its mystique calls to me; I cannot resist.
Amidst rags, and splinters, and dust,
something glitters—a rose.

It beckons me; I am powerless to resist.
I draw nearer and nearer, my head in a fog,
But—
the beast appears and shoves me back.
He will not let me near his rose.

His roar shakes the walls and floor.
I have never felt such terror.
I turn and run, straight out of the castle.
I am no longer my paper’s brave Rose.

The wind bites through my cloak,
and Philippe struggles through the blizzard.
I am certain I will die, and all that will remain,
buried in the drifts, will be a Rose.

The beast finds me, blue and lulled half-asleep.
He lifts me with gentle paws and carries me
to his castle that now seems warm and inviting.

I slumber and dream once again of princes, spells, and roses.

He Saw Her (a random poem I wrote that plays with words)

“Suit yourself,” he said.
He wore a suit.
When there was no reply,
he turned to his left.
She wasn’t there;
she’d already left.
Their plans to meet at the altar were forever altered.

The first time he saw her,
she was covered in flour and smelled of thyme.
He’d held a single flower in his hand.
It was close to closing time,
but she was so enchanted
that she lost track of time.
He marched into her life
on that rainy March day
that changed the course of their lives.

It hadn’t been easy after—
the journey was a difficult ascent
but she’d given her assent.
He was reluctant to say it aloud at first—
he’d allowed himself to fall in love.
Something worried his soul, though,
ever since he’d seen the initials on her sole.
He brushed his worries aside,
and believed their love would withstand.

When they were apart,
they sent letters.
Hers were graced with the scent
of her lavender-vanilla perfume.
His days without her were hazy;
he was in a lovelorn daze.
His were not the only letters she received.

They were reunited early one morning,
when the ground was still covered in dew.
He asked if she’d say, “I do.”
She said yes.
Yet, when she saw the gilt ring,
her gut jolted with guilt
for she had secretly fallen for another.

She didn’t tell him,
and he fell for her façade;
the girl he was to marry
was not who she said she was.
Soon the merry day arrived,
but guilt gnawed at her conscience.

She gave her reflection a little nod.
She knew what she had to do.
She had never meant to overdo this lie,
and now her confession was long overdue.

She would never be at peace,
if she went through with the wedding.
She wouldn’t give the priest a chance to say,
“Speak now or forever hold your piece.”
As the bells in the steeple pealed,
she peeled herself off the chair
and went down the hall to see her groom.

They argued—
he was angry, but she was calm.
The bells continued to ring,
but the ring fell to the floor.
She ran out the door into the rain
and gathered the horse’s reins.
The horse’s bridle jangled
as she abandoned her bridal best.
Their relationship didn’t last;
that was the last time
he saw her.

June 2, 2016

Review: Break Me Like a Promise

There may be some spoilers for Hold Me Like a Breath. Proceed with caution.

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Break Me Like a Promise by Tiffany Schmidt
Grade: A-
Release date: June 7, 2016
An ARC was provided by Bloomsbury in exchange for review consideration.
Summary: All Magnolia Vickers has ever wanted was to follow her father’s path as head of the Family Business. But new legislation is poised to destroy the Family’s operations in the black-market organ trade and Maggie’s recent behavior has wrecked the business-savvy reputation she’s worked her whole life to build.

She’s given an ultimatum: shape up or step aside.

Then Maggie messes up: she downloads a virus onto her father’s computer, and must sneak it off-estate for repair. When Alex, a tech whiz, uncovers the type of information on the machine, he offers Maggie a choice: her Family can give him a kidney, or he’ll irreparably scramble the data. Maggie agrees, but has no intention of keeping her promise or ever seeing him again. That night Alex shows up at her Family estate with copies of confidential Family files and a shocking revelation—the kidney is for him.

The Vickers aren’t willing to let Alex out of their sight, so he moves onto their estate and Maggie is assigned to be his keeper. A task she resents and he enjoys making as challenging as possible. But procuring black market organs is becoming increasingly difficult, and as Alex’s health declines, she’s surprised to find herself falling for him.

Like it or not, Maggie must accept that if she wants to save Alex’s life and carve out a place in the new legalized organ business, she’s going to have to fight for both.

The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly: I didn't realize how much I wanted to return to the Once Upon a Crime Family world until I started reading Break Me Like a Promise. It's a world of medical and technological jargon, but still altogether fun because how many of us are part of organized crime families? (Don't answer that.)
I definitely felt like the two main plots stayed strong throughout the entire book. I loved how a lot of things resolved...and how certain things remained open for Maggie, Penny, and Char to deal with. It felt a lot like a strategy, people maneuvering where they needed to be and fighting for the top, but it wasn't as dirty as in, for example, The Fixer. The Family is a close unit and they use reason and authority to get what they want instead of blackmailing.
I actually really enjoyed Maggie as a character. She is strong yet broken, and she's flawed but she grows and learns. She's motivated and a bit calculating - definitely a Slytherin. Despite that, she cares and loves deeply. She loved Carter Landlow, and she is mourning him. The back story development we get on them felt necessary, and I just wanted to hug Maggie so much during those scenes (except she probably wouldn't be too receptive of those hugs). I was a little less connected to Alex, and I wanted more in-depth connection to him. He felt a bit one-dimensional at times.
Which brings me to the romance; I knew an attraction would form between Maggie and Alex, and I didn't buy into it beyond that. I'm very critical of romances, and they've got to be really good to get my approval. I needed a few more scenes earlier on with romantic tension just so I could ship Maggie and Alex.
Violence, sexual content, and language were all extremely mild; I didn't catch more than one or two curses.

The Verdict: Better than Hold Me Like a Breath, but because of the romance, this is only a 4-star read.


Will I be adding this book to my library?: It's on my Secret Sister wishlist, so, yes, I'd like to!